Surrendering nothing

Somehow we aren’t able to think about surrender without thinking about things. Surrendering is always the thought for surrendering something, some thing, of dispensing with something, of renouncing something, of letting go of something that we possess. It inevitably refers to some property we hold, an to which we feel some kind of natural or acquired right . It might be a material thing, what we commonly call ‘private property’, a book or bicycle or a house. Or it might be a non-material thing, an idea or a thought which invented or are the originator of and to which we therefore have a similar kind of right.

This way of thinking about ‘private property’ is distinctly Western in its origins, even if it has spread to become a global norm. Its most puzzling feature is the problem of its origin.

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Surrendering pride

Verse 1

In the first of his Teachings for the mind, Śrīla Raghunātha Dāsa Gosvāmī instructs us to give up our pride. 

Giving up our pride is a special kind of surrender. In the West we are taught the importance of pride. We are taught that in order to be successful in life we must take pleasure in ourselves, be satisfied with our selves. Those who succeed, we are raised to understand, are those who have esteem for themselves, those who value themselves, who find satisfaction in themselves, those who are able to care for themselves and, ultimately, love themselves. 

Self-pleasure, self-satisfaction, self-care, self-love: these are all precious qualities. Why then do the the saint admonish us to surrender them?

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The power of divine love

Verse 42

In his commentary to Verse 42 of Vilāpa-kusumāñjali, Ananda Das Babaji describes the different classifications of love. There are four levels of intensity of that love, spanning from the love of ordinary devotees, to the love of the great sages, to the love of the Vrajavāsīs, to the love of Rādhārāni, which is the greatest love of all. 

Kṛṣna, he goes on, ‘is controlled by His devotees according to the amount of love they have for Him, and Śrī Rādhikā has the greatest love for Him (parama mahān), therefore She controls Him to the utmost’. 

Ananta das babaji thus gives us an important lesson about the difference between divine love (prema) and mundane love (kama

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Neither male nor female

Verse 53

We observe our bodies and we see the physiology of men and women, of male and female. This material confinement of gender and sexuality steers mundane social conflict and political debates about which bodies we are authorised to love. The life of material love, of material desire, is intertwined with the dualism of genders. In our modern experience of sexuality this dualism is sometimes inverted, exchanged or reassigned. But we seem unable to imagine ourselves, to grasp our identities without it. 

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What is generosity?

We are awash in generosity. And yet it can neither be taught nor learned, neither given nor taken. Being generous is never just being something. Nor is it just doing something, least of all just giving. Olives give olive oil, and yet they know nothing of generosity. It’s because generosity, when it is anything, is not one thing, but two. Generosity is only meaningful when it teeters between being the generous quality of a person, the heart and soul of someone, one soul, who gives, and the singular quality of a generous gift. Giver and gift, soul and thing, feeling and object.

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Love is everything

Love is the ultimate surrender.

We all seek to love and be loved. It is the deepest need and and at the same time the deepest desire we have. This essential truth cries out to us from every aspect of our lives, from the way we relate to our children and our parents, to our relation with our neighbours and friends, to the interactions with colleagues. In all of these relations, the shape and power of love are making themselves felt. To say that ‘love is everything’ is not understating this experience we have at every instant of our day, every moment we think a thought, every we breath we take, everything we do. 

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The longing we feel

In the love that is objectless and subjectless, there is no ego that loves, and no thing that is loved. This longing we feel, this suspicion in hearts, this sliver in our minds, is the hint of longing on its way to us, longing that is growing, longing that will see the light of day. 

Yet it is by longing for material things that we resist the divine longing, standing intentionally, or perhaps intuitionally in the way, Of course we want to feel that weak signal of divinity, for that is what lies behind every moment of pleasure we have. All the aesthetic sources of pleasure—beauty, fragrance, taste, sensation—are also clues to the inner longing for the divine beauty.

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Fear of surrender

To resist is to stand against something. And this experience of standing against, of standing for or standing up for is so ancient, so deep in us, that we cannot recall when it was not part of us.  A child is born into a moment of surrender for which no surrender was necessary. Where there is a self, there is a standing-against, standing against being, standing against the world. Even the infant’s first convulsive motions are reflex of unarticulated struggle to not fall back into pure existence, to exist, to express to live. 

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